Life goes on, and as this season rolls in, I’m rolling with it. I’ll be moving to Washington, DC as part of an alternate teacher education program, I’ll be studying early childhood education, and I’ll be living up to the freedom of choosing how to live my life and how to stay devoted.
I’m just happy. There is only so much Kansas can offer me, and it’s awesome to have the freedom to move to a new city while I’m still young, where I can make the most of my time. God has been in this process from the beginning, and I strongly feel his anointing over my path and my future; he has been so central to this decision.
I know that Christians do this thing where they cloister themselves and reject the world at large, but my Jesus is big enough to take on reality. I’ll be living in the city and working on my faith, and I trust that God will help me find a church, an apartment, etc. Thing is, he is good to me and he really doesn’t change. So I’ve got a lot to look forward to. I’m grateful to explore the parts of my personality and the ups and downs of new seasons. Midwestern hypocrisy can really ruin good things, and I’m looking forward to appreciating my hometown more as I leave it. I’m so entertained by how many unfulfilled Kansan church people want to interpret my sense of mischief and all things silly as a sexual, femme fatale sort of thing. Maybe outside of a red state, people will just let me live my life and not ascribe frivolous second meanings to personality traits that God created which are in no way sexual. We can complain all day about gay people, but maybe if y’all watched less porn, you’d have less to read into.
I’ll be in a place where I can use my good judgment and have plenty of adventures. I imagine having picnics and going to a lot of free cultural/education events. Just learning more. I’m going to just be and trust that God has already designed good things that I can simply enjoy as I move forward. Instead of being like those people who whine and moan about the earth not being Heaven on literally every Christian article, I’m going to be kind, consistent, and position myself to share about Jesus honestly. We all know the world is fallen. Even if we don’t have the same words for it, “life isn’t fair”. Stop your miserable complaining and use your shared brokenness to actually speak to somebody. Jesus isn’t interested in our comfort, but our willingness to share in other’s existence and move. My availability is better than my opinions. Even if I abandon my opinions, I’d rather be the person who shows up. It’s easier to play diplomat than Savior. Although I’m sure we can read politics into what I just said, being willing to be in the world is not political, it’s practical.
I trust in God’s goodness. I know he knows well enough how to direct me. I’m leaving either way. It’s time to step into the next adventure, and by the grace of God, I’m willing.