I have been thinking for a little bit on what it means to be weak, snd hopefully exploring what might be humility (I really hope so because Lord knows I need it), and I have one little thought to offer.
It has to do with our size. In the course of daily life, Faith is generally tested during times of confronting our own weakness. Given that we will always be weaker than God, does it really matter how much weaker we are? Think about David, and all the Kings of the earth. If God is infinite, then they are all infinitely weaker than him. If we are the weakest person alive, with the least to offer, with nothing else to hope in, the only partiality God would show between us and the greatest person is that by a result of our suffering, we might understand him better. He would send the exact same steadfast love, no matter what our conditions. Given that he is just as infinite as compared to utter weakness as what we would call strength because his love stretches on forever, does it really make sense to panic when we come across our own weakness? We could just regard it as evidence that we are not God, and celebrate that because he does him better than us making idols. We are all useless without God and we all fall short. By that logic, we all are subject and lucky to recieve Grace, no matter what our blessings have been. Even if one person has intense spiritual gifts and another does not, the person who does not recieve as much wont be asked as much of them nor are they excluded, but God judges us all fairly according to the portion he’s given us and shows no partiality. We seek justice and assume there is none, but it’s coming. You just have to hold out for it.
Furthermore, being honest in where you are and are not capable makes you more receptive to accept blessing as it comes. If we have no deficit, what can we recieve? It is the same as the Rich Man who tried to enter heaven. You have to need to accept grace, and in God’s eyes, all that any of us can need is still just a little. He made the freaking universe. I really doubt he would begrudge you for asking for a speck more than the other guy got, or taking to him your genuine problems, instead of any nonsense placeholders we might scoot towards him. You ever do that? Like, you try to downplay what is on your heart so you wont have to surrender the rough stuff? None of that. He can handle the heavy lifting and he is your best candidate for help because there isn’t anything you can do in return but be grateful. Seriously. Think about what happens with some friends if you had to move and needed to borrow their truck of something. They’d atleast expect pizza. God helps with harder stuff entirely for free. And if people try to charge for his Holy Spirit, he comes against them because he loves us too much to despise us into servitude that sucks just like the world sucks. He wants to give us more than that.